kadang kadang

gara gara rawak

"kadang kadang kau nih bising"
"kadang kadang kau senyap"
"kadang kadang kau banyak cakap"
"kadang kadang kau blur"
"kadang kadang kau nih pelik"
"kadang kadang aku ta kenal kau"
"kadang kadang kau nih baik juga"
"kadang kadang kau nih annoying"

HAHAHAHAH

"kadang kadang aku pun penat dengan perangai kau yang kadang kadang sangat nih"
"unpredictable kan unik"
"perasan sangat kau nih"
"baru rare"
"rare sangat pun payah"
"tahu part tuh yang aku hadap hari hari"
"tahu tape ke na aku ingatkan"
"oh tape terima kasih biar aku simpan"





juga disalahertikan dan tersalaherti

some beats

Bila suatu saat dimana kita kehabisan kata kata
melodi menjadi benteng diri

suatu inisiatif daripada seorang lemah

dalam menyatakan sesuatu
secara tidak langsung

yang kadang kadang hanya secara rawak
juga sekadar hiburan

some words of inspiration

ini semua hasil nukilan fynn jamal yang buat aku rasa terinspirasi dan
I feel you sis

typical me hahahah


"semua orang pembohong.
semua orang penipu.
tak usah pegang orang lain.
pegang diri sendiri dulu.
kalau tidak percaya, tengok cermin. akan kita nampak pembohong dan penipu sepertimana yang lain2;
kita semua pelakon hebat.
maka ayuh, pada cermin tadi, tepuk bahu sendiri dan kata,
“terima kasih kerana selalu jadi cangkerang aku."

"semoga takkan kita lupa betapa hebatnya yakin ibrahim pada tuhan.
kerana berapa ramai kita mampu membuang ragu baiknya tuhan bila mana datang musibah atas kita? malah yang lebih selalu, bila datang hari2 hancur, siap kita tanya2 tuhan kita.
haih. malu sungguh menjadi kita.
selamat berkorban, sahabat2 dan kawan2.
semoga kita lebih kebal bercangkerang redha."

(Fynn Jamal, 2010)

"bila mana tadi aku menangis pada disebutnya “take refuge in allah, for he is the most hearing, the most knowing”; aku menyedari betapa aku selalu lupa mencari refuge dari dia.
dan lebih menyedihkan,
aku TAHU aku selalu lupa."

"dunia ini terlalu kejam untuk orang2 kekurangan percaya diri macam aku: takkan pernah rasa cukup bagus utk sesiapa, rasa layak utk apa2 —sentiasa penat utk buat semua orang bahagia.
*pause*
yang mana agak mustahil, sbb takkan kita mampu puaskan semua.
ah. bajingan.
aku kena ubah diri aku, baru dunia akan jadi lebih cantik dan warna-warni."

"ada sebab kenapa asyik kita yang disampahcelaka. sebab tuhan tahu kita kebal dan mampu utk tempuh apa yang tuhan suruh kita rasa.
dan kau bayangkan.
kalau TUHAN SENDIRI tahu kita kebal dan mampu,
kita SIAPA nak kata sebaliknya?"

"kalau kita boleh bagi standing ovation pada good plot dlm filem2 hebat,
kenapa perlu kita meratap pada qada’ dan qadar yg tuhan sediakan tersurat"

 (FynnJamal, 2011)

and again aku quote dari fynn jamal
she's famous
tapi kalau ta kenal boleh google ja

mungkin sebenarnya aku yang takut untuk jujur
dalam mengekspresikan diri sendiri
aku ta tahu bagaimana
aku takut kecut
pengecut
 
 

life

life would be like wide diverse and so on
differ amongst individual and creature



we all have religion as our guidance
knowledge and  skills to survive



therefore its up to them what would their be like rite?

"Welcome To My Life"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming?

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like (What it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

do you?

yeah sometimes life would not like we desire

but we must have faith that those were the best

there's always a good thing rite even we don't realize what they are

to be positive all the time also not easy

to be worried also troublesome

well that's life

ups and down

yeah the key would be like

keep your faith

dunia sementara 

akhirat itu pasti

dua dua harus seimbang

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan dunia dan akhirat kami. sesungguhnya kami mengharapkan pengakhiran yang baik serta keredhaan Mu. aminnn

 

deep within

"Hello"

Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello, I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello, I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello, I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday 

 

 

 

something to be consider

a place

"A Place In This World"

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
Cause I'm still trying to figure it out
Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
Trying to see through the rain coming down
Even though I'm not the only one
Who feels the way I do

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh, I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine
Could you tell me what more do I need
And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah
But that's ok

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh, I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission
But I'm ready to fly

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Oh I'm just a girl
Oh I'm just a girl, oh, oh,
Oh I'm just a girl 

and just suddenly I am kinda like this song.

as some motivation.

for some situation.

err like the song only not the singer 

but I am neither a hater nor a fan

of this Ms Swift 

the clock is ticking

time sure flies fast.

but sometimes it just like forever especially when we really want something to get over. when we want it to be slow it just running away or be taken from us. is it?

someone have said to me that time is energy when we applied extra force there will be more energy or in easier word TENSION. yeah some sort like that, so physics. that's why we felt it flies fast, according to him.

a procrastinator seems like he/she had much time in accomplishing his/her assignments, in facts he/she just buy some time excuses. well that's depends on the individuals. maybe he/she happy like that. buying some excuses instead of improve his/her quality of works.

I believe everyone who lived in the world have realized time is the most valuable unseen fortune in the world, at least deep in their heart. we cannot trade back the past. we cannot change the history. previous timeline cannot be mend. artifact, photos do tells about past. but nothing will change them. so valuable.

someone who can really control the time sure really rich. sure no one posses such power rite? even scientist unable to invent time machine.

what matter the most is that how we spend all those times that we have wisely. the time management. humans have many desires, wishes. although we cannot fulfill all those, we just want a better future in our life.

By (the Token of) Time (through the ages), Verily Man is in loss, Except such as have Faith, and do righteous deeds, and (join together) in the mutual teaching of Truth, and of Patience and Constancy. 

    (Al-'Asr 103:1-3)

*the truth is I'm tension with all these assignments and I seek strength to face all these. amiinnn.

peluang

secara personal aku rasa dengan memberi peluang kepada orang lain sebenarnya kita memberi peluang kepada diri sendiri.

tapi

peluang tidak selalu hadir

kadang kadang 

kita ragu ragu dengannya;

peluang, diri sendiri, hasil

jadi bagi aku peluang itu juga misteri.

juga anugerah.

seperti perasaan.

semoga mendapat petunjuk dan bimbingan dariNya.

"homesick"

because I'm suddenly feel like quitting and missing home.

"Nobody's Home"

Well I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah